7 months strong and I am still writing a poem everyday of 2012. This journey has truly been amazing and I am thankful for those who have supported me throughout it all. Earlier this year in my writing, I struggled with forgiveness. How does one forgive? How do you just wake up and say I forgive someone, especially when you have felt that they have betrayed or disrespected you? Today was an experience in which I truly forgave someone and released the burden and stronghold that it had on my life. I will say that in forgiveness, it is not an act that can be done alone. It requires strength far beyond the human mind can handle. It requires love. Love that is not superficial but love that extends its hand to those who harm you. This kind of love that only comes from the Awesome and Mighty God.
I am on a spiritual fast and God has been revealing so many things to me throughout it and today was an amazing experience in which my heart was convicted. This morning I was on a Prayer Conference call with an organization called Girlfriends Pray. The scripture for today was Matthew 5:43- 45:
43 Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.
44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
Verse 44 really stood out to me and God begin to tell me to pray for this individual who I had a grudge against. He told me to let it go. I began to write and once I finished, the weight that had been holding me down was lifted and it felt amazing.
Friends and readers, holding grudges in your heart does something to your spirit that is so damaging. Regardless of your religious affiliation, I urge you to look into your heart and examine those things that you feel are holding you back from moving forward. Feelings of bitterness, jealously, inadequacy...let those go and watch how your life is changed.
This burden being lifted was life changing and I began to cry and worship God like I have never done before. Words flew from my lips that I could not comprehend but I knew that God understood every syllable to escaped my lips.
I wanted to share the piece that I wrote and I pray that it ministers to your spirit.
Much love
July 25, 2012
Conviction in my hart
I can no longer hold this against you
For the burden of this anger
Weighs heavily upon my soul
Always short breaths
Always temperature rising
But now it's time to release
Release all feelings of inadequacy
Comparing myself
For God has made me who I am
All of me
Wonderfully made and crafted in His image
I step into the mold He has created
Just for me
Allowing every inch of my spirit to connect
With the outlined frame
Now is the time to release
All the anger and bitterness
Swelled up in my heart
Every time your name is mentioned
Or every time I see you
Release the tension
That should have never formed in the first place
Release jealousy
Release negativity
Release ill wishes toward your life
I
forgive
you
I
bless
you
I pray that your heart receives all the blessings God has intended
I pray that your spirit adheres to the promises God has for your life
And I pray that you accept this token of love
Not of my flesh
But of the servant's mind and heart
That God has convicted
The love that I alone
could and can not extend to you
But only through He
can I extend this love
This hand of Christian fellowship
Weight lifted
Posture more at ease
Heart at normal pace
And
peace
So this
is forgiveness
